The Secret Lives of Mormon Wives cast member Jessi Ngatikaura has expressed regret over her recent plastic surgery.
Earlier this year, the reality star revealed that she underwent an upper and lower blepharoplasty and facial fat grafting in addition to other cosmetic procedures. However, while doing press for the upcoming new season of SLOMW, she explained that she was “rightfully” receiving negative comments about the way her face looks.
“I want to tell everyone that I am extremely unhappy with my results and I didn’t quite understand what I was getting into,” she said Thursday in a TikTok video.
“This last surgery ruined my life I look f***ing hideous in season five. It’s ruined my career,” an emotional Ngatikaura said.
“I went in for a lower bleph, and then I asked about an upper bleph and ended up getting that. Did not want that [fat] grafting, to be honest,” she continued, adding that she didn’t fully understand “what it was, what it was going to do, what the results were gonna be, what the recovery was gonna be.”
Ngatikaura admitted that she did not have enough information on facial fat grafting at the time, and was originally told it would be a replacement for filler. She also noted that the grafting went in her lips, which she did not “ask for [and] didn’t want.”
“It’s made my lips really lumpy,” she added. “I have one that dips. I’m getting a lot of comments about my lip filler, and I agree, it looks awful. My face looks terrible.”
The influencer and hair salon owner said in her TikTok that she did try to remove “some of the fat” in her face by receiving Kybella injections, which was making her look “swollen.”
“I’m really insecure,” Ngatikaura said, starting to tear up. “I understand that I look really different and I hate it. I look back at how I used to look [and] I watched season four and I’m like, ‘Damn. I looked really good.’ I wish I could have seen that. I’m gonna cry talking about it.”
Reflecting on her cosmetic procedure, the reality TV star said she would not be making any changes to her face “outside of Botox.”
After posting, one of Ngatikaura’s SLOMW co-costars, Miranda McWhorter, commented, expressing how proud she was of her friend for being honest about her experience.
“Jessss. i’m so proud of you for consistently being so transparent and authentic regardless of how you felt about the results,” McWhorter wrote. “You are beautiful then and now. I love you.”
SLOMW season four will be available to watch March 12 on Hulu.